Friday, 1 April 2011

my life

There is so much to say about me.. most of the part just simply boring but yet quite interesting to my readers :)
.. all through my life, there are lots of disappointments rather than satisfaction.. i find my self cut off from the world at every phase.. everyone is around me to give me all that i wanted. but still some thing irreplaceable has left and my wanting for that is cannot be filled my anyone.. and that is my mom.her unconditional love.. she left this date last year.. April 1st 2010. leaving this fool(me)to the world.. nothing can replace her.. perhaps thats the reason why find myself alone although am with innumerable number of people...
         I don't remember my childhood, how i spent, but few glimpses still exist in my mind.. i remember i was good at schooling.. i was my teachers fav student.. i even won the best student award in my 6th standard.. i fought with god i remember that he always been  partial to few but not me.. i lost hope.felt dis hearted.. but to my surprise on the day announcement my name was called.. it was a  bit shocking but not complete.. coz i new some where that, this award was mine. lol.. my joy new no bounds.. i was very happy that day.. this was a big achievement to me. unforgettable one..
          The other one was when i delivered a speech on the school assembly dais and i received a huge round of appaulse and appreciation from each and everyone.. it was sister mercy who recognized the inner capability and made it known to the entire school.. from then i was recognized as a good orator.. i gave many speeches on national festival occasions. i don't know exactly remember the sense of mind i had, but the highlight of schooling was i a good student called by my teachers..
          Inspite of these good achievements there are some bad yet the most unforgettable life lessons learnt.. though i was favorite  for many there was one of my teacher who used to scold me.. its from her i received such a bad punch.. it was a painful experience.. but forgetting those i moved on as of nothing happened.. i still her sentences 'don't be like sravani' ..' i met your mother and when told me about i couldn't recollect u'... i felt very bad that day.. there was no recognition for me.. i was feeling dejected.. a sort of hate developed for her in my heart... guess what would have happened next? i would have told sorry?? noo.. i went near her to inform her regarding by sis absence to the school.. she was expecting a sorry but i din give a damn to her... such a gal i was.. :)
         I forgot to tell something lol.. i was a good thinker too.. even my darling sis.. we both scripted a drama and we enacted it in front of the whole school.. the topic of occasion was children's day.. and we very enthusiastically presented the drama and it was liked.. wow what a talent i had ..lol.. great isn't?
        Recalling those memories gives a good feeling and boost my confidence to achieve something extraordinary :)... i don't understand and unable to recognize the thing that kept me going.. whatever it was, good achievements , good impression have been a part of my schooling.. after these many years it feels good recalling all those.....
       The funniest thing i remember is my lunch box..which i called tiffin box lol... i used to carry the biggest basket of all my mates.. it contained a hot box with its cap loosen.. two water bottles.. a curd box.. dal box sometimes.. with papad or vadiyalu.. last but not the least ha ha salt...  my god! no one had such of mine.. there would be leakage of water from my basket and everyone use to complain me whenever they happen to sit on ground and that to near my basket.. it was embarrassing but its funny to recall all those now...
school memories though most of those left me leaving a mark...